Monday, September 29, 2008
Ranting
So... I know many people have heard this rant before, and that is a sad thing. It is sad because nothing has changed, conditions have not improved. Here is my problem: I seem to attract creeps/older men. I'm working on a theory as to why, but here are the situations. There is this guy who works in the dishroom at work and, from day one, he called me honey. First of all, there is nothing wrong with calling people "honey" except that he had no idea who I was, what kind of reaction I would have to it. And it's just the way he says it. I really don't know how to explain. But sometimes he says stuff like "you're a good girl", or tries to offer me unnecessary encouragement. I know, I know... maybe he's just a nice guy trying to be friendly. To that, I would have to say, watch him. It is not just some 40 year old fat man with grey hair being nice, there's... something else. Another example of my weird creep magnetism powers? Well... there's this other guy at work who is a janitor. He's Mexican or something (not that this has anything to do with his actions, but I'm trying to paint a picture). His age is hard to tell other than he's definitely over 45, he has grey hair as well, and also is a little chubby. He always smiles at me, which is fine, friendly. But when he drives the floor cleaning machine, and I walk by, he raises his eyebrows at me. I'm not talking about a one time thing, it's everytime I walk by. And it's not just a double "hey good-looking" kind of eyebrow raise, it's a triple eyebrow raise! What does that mean? Am I reading too much into this? Maybe, but maybe not. Maybe only I can truly understand what's happening, because I'm the one experiencing it. I could give you another couple of examples, but this is really starting to make me sad. What is it about me? Do I smile too much? Do I have open body language? Just the other day, I had a man who I used to know stop on the street and say, "I miss your beautiful smile." That just makes me want to shiver and throw up. And I can honestly say that these weird experiences have been happening for years, I'm just really starting to think about them. So it is not something new... do I seem too nice? If anyone can offer any encouraging comments or insights, I would really appreciate it. I think my work is starting to affect my mental health.
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